Time to Move On

Life is sweeter without the pain


Reaching back each day for you


Moving on this heart must sustain


Hoping for words far over due




Alone in the dark and quiet night


Silence fills my heart


No one but you could fill the space


A word of love it would restart




Unspoken words tear at me


I cannot continue this way


Until there is nothing left


And I die a little more each day




Time to Move On


See things in a different light


Make the most of who I am


Move on without you in my life




I have more love than you could imagine


Stored up within my heart


It was all there for you to have


Abundantly I would impart




Distancing yourself as you so easily do


and caring so little of me


Though your words at first were endearing


Twas all lost for I was across the sea




So it is time for me to move on


I am taking up a new stand


I refuse to be hurt again


Time to see where this heart lands






Swan

Just thinking

New thoughts come each day. Curiosities and puzzlement's. Like trying to figure out the thought processes of others. What makes a person dishonest, cruel, un-caring, disrespectful, deceitful. All the negativity boggles my brain. Why can't people love and care and be honest and thoughtful? It is something in our genes? Is it something one is taught? Do we learn from others and say," Gee I want to be just like him/her."  Is there some sort of perverse joy in causing pain or sadness to another? What's wrong, are we all just meant to be this way? 
Am I the odd one out? You see, I dislike pain, suffering, sadness, dishonesty, cruelty, meanness, and in my eyes, the only way to be is just the opposite of all these things. Here's the rub,,,,I want to be treated the same as I treat others!!! Wow, what a concept!! I don't do nice to get nice, I do nice because it is right and feels good and makes others feel good. I want to trust and be trusted.
Really!! it just isn't that easy is it?  Time is passing so quickly and I'm just getting really tired of all the lies and everything else.

With my eyes open....now I can see

Once relealizing reality about yourself, you can be open to help others. It gives a new and better outlook...set aside the worries of this life and look for the things that will help you to get to the next in good graces with God. There in you will find peace in this one.

My Heart Hurts

My heart hurts for you

when you leave me all alone

My heart hurts inside

denying me what I've known

It cuts so deep into me

what am I supposed to do

with all this love I have inside

that is all meant for you

My heart hurts so much

You promised we were one

I didn't see this coming

Now all I feel is numb

Your absence stabs my heart

in ways I never could conceive

Empty now I stand alone

Just a shell you did deceive

swan